to clarify.......

I basically feel as though the mountain i have begun to climb is no longer covered in ice. At one point i sat in the deepest point of the valley and cried till the salt of my tears floated me to the top. And i looked out over that huge molehill and saw a bright sun rising. And the waters fell and i stood in the valley. And i grabbed hold and pulled myself up slowly but surely. This time when i look out and see the sun, it was my own hard work and sweat that brought me to this point of bliss. And again i weep, my tears of joy nourish the grass and flowers bloom and i drink till i am satiated. And joy seeps into my bloodstream like alcohol to make my heart flutter. Wings break through my back and i soar above the mountain and the valley and the tears and the flowers and the sun is far now and i am on my own . I am alive, i drink the clouds and kiss the air as i build a nest in the sky.


...maybe that wasnt clear, basically i see possibility start to materialize and dreaming becoming reality and i have hope and faith and fill my every particle with the most positive thoughts i can muster and i feel good. better than usual.